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Lesson 280 - Kundalini Reminders (Audio)
AYP Plus Additions:
280.1 - Kundalini: Cold
Body, Twitching, etc... (Audio)
280.2 - Concern about Kundalini Jerks and Twitches (Audio)
Date: Thu Jan 12, 2006 1:13 pm
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Q: Over the holidays I had the most interesting experience.
One evening, as I was getting ready for bed, I started shivering. Though I
was not feeling cold at all, I was shivering. I thought nothing of it and
simply took out another sheet and cuddled under them. However I was now
This went on for about 5 minutes or so. Then I felt my lower back getting
very warm, as though someone had put a heating pad on there, nearing a
burning sensation. But the heat was not coming from an outside source. Then
as suddenly as my shivering had started, it stopped...for a few moments.
As it started up again, it felt as though millions of electrical impulses
were being forced, in spurts, from my lower back to the navel area. All the
while I was "shivering" like before, but noticed this time that the
epicenter of the shivering was concentrated around the navel area. The
spurts went on for a few minutes, and like my lower back, now my navel felt
intense heat, though not as much as the lower back. And just like before, it
subsided as quickly as it had begun...for a few moments.
The same scenario happened, but this time the spurts started from the navel
and were being forced upward, ending at the area around the chest and
lungs. For the lower back and navel, I could almost pinpoint where the
impulses were concentrated. However with this area, it was more difficult.
It felt as though is was being discharged, coming from the spine, moving
towards the chest, but spreading out into the whole area of the chest, not
so much a single point. Kind of like blowing flour from your hand. And just
like before, it subsided as quickly as it had begun...for a few moments.
This time it started from the chest and moved towards the throat. However
this time it felt as though it had lost its momentum. I could barely tell
where it was ending.
I have to say that it was a very humbling experience. I don't know if that
was kundalini or not, but I was helpless throughout the experience. Whatever
was going to happen, all I could do was observe, as I was pretty much
physically debilitated from the intense "shivering". At first I was scared,
but after I felt it at the navel, I thought perhaps that it could possibly
kundalini, at which point I was no longer afraid. I figured it knew what it
was doing and I would step back and let it do what it had to do - not that I
had any choice in the matter.
One thing is for sure, I am now a believer that kundalini is VERY REAL. I
always thought it was something subtle and esotheric, but to me, it was very
tangible, and with a definite physical manifestation.
A: That was a beaut. Balance and self-pacing in practices are the first
things that come to mind on reading your dramatic kundalini experience.
That, and a reminder that the idea of "breaking through" to higher levels in
the body with these kinds of experiences is somewhat of an illusion. I know
this is not your intention. It just happened, right? Yet, the idea can creep
in that "this is it," and we should now focus on cultivating these kinds of
dramatic breakthrough events. To be honest, there is no such thing as a
final opening of this kind, and there is barely such a thing as a
significant incremental opening. These things rarely happen in quantum
leaps, even though they might appear to be doing so. There is the idea out
there that all we have to do is bring the energy up to the top and then we
are done -- enlightened. Not so.
Rather, there are endless degrees of purification and opening going on to
infinity. The Secrets
of Wilder novel
provides a scenario representing this process. No matter how big a jolt we
might get, or how high up, we are still only at the beginning of the next
stage. So there is no rush to open a particular physical area and break
through into higher centers with all this. We can arrive there via natural
means (a la AYP style practices), and be much more comfortable going at it
Of course, our bhakti will always be begging for more, and therein lies the
balancing act. John Wilder had a tough time with this, balancing his bhakti
with his sometimes frenetic pace, learning his lessons as he went along. We
all have to do this...
I mention all this because, while the big experiences may seem like a lot
progress-wise, they are all baby steps. The real big progress comes from long
term stable daily practice.
And that can be with no big jolts at all. In fact, the big jolts can lead us
into energy overdoses that can delay our practices for days, weeks or
months. An intentional big jolt breakthrough approach is a slower path!
Which is not to say we will not ever have them. It can can happen sometimes,
as you have experienced, even with a stable practice routine. It is a
reminder that we are dealing with powerful forces within, and should keep
that in mind as we manage our practices day-to-day. If we are pushing too
hard in practices, we can have this kind of delayed reaction. Therefore, it
is good to keep a smart foot on that accelerator (our practices).
So now you have some proof that something is really going on in there. You
have become a believer in your own inner potential. :-)
May it be an inspiration to settle down into a long term stable routine that
will steadily open things up. Then, one morning you will wake up and realize
that without even noticing you traveled a thousand miles further than all
the jolts in the world could take you.
If we are steadily cultivating inner silence, and gently coaxing up ecstatic
conductivity, all will unfold naturally and more quickly than any energy
breakthrough experience can deliver.
Thanks for sharing that one, and all the best as you move ahead from here.
The guru is in you.
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