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compassion
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 Posted - Mar 04 2020 : 04:21:11 AM
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So I'm at a stage when it seems every avenue in life has ended in failure. Every effort has been in vain. There is a strong dissatisfaction with this life and in myself for getting myself to this point, though I can acknowledge I have done my best in everything, it's a simple fact that my best hasn't been enough to avoid this.
Even spiritual practices haven't brought the freedom, peace, love, abundance, whatever. It hasn't turned me into a good person, especially a good father, which I sense was one of my primary motivations to meditate in the first place. So motivation to meditate is irregular and often lacking. I sense the experience is rather humbling, and tends to be relentless, there is some momentary peace after shedding tears. But the clouds do not lift, and the cycle repeats, with no end in sight. |
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BlueRaincoat
United Kingdom
1730 Posts |
Posted - Mar 04 2020 : 06:32:54 AM
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Hello compassion
By what standards did you fail?
And how did those standards get formed and adopted by you?
My first reaction to your self assessment is that it's very black and white. You know, we could all have done some things better, some things we managed to do not too badly, but doing nothing right? That's unusual. So tell us more about it. |
Edited by - BlueRaincoat on Mar 04 2020 09:28:36 AM |
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Dogboy
USA
2195 Posts |
Posted - Mar 04 2020 : 5:14:52 PM
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| Perhaps the best reason for a regular practice? To have a daily routine to count on? When lost in a forest, you can sit and wait for someone to rescue you, or you can try to walk your way out. |
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interpaul
USA
525 Posts |
Posted - Mar 05 2020 : 12:37:24 AM
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| Compassion, Your note hit me hard. I feel a lot of pain and sadness in your words . I am glad you reached out here. There are a lot of kind and caring individuals on this forum. Don't give up. These practices are a gift given to us by Yogani but they don't fix all of our problems. I am a father too. The fact you question if you are good father is hopeful. We always have a chance to do better tomorrow. Find a little compassion for yourself. The efforts you make every day matter but may not be apparent to you in the short term. |
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pkj
USA
158 Posts |
Posted - Mar 05 2020 : 11:32:57 AM
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Compassion, Let us not be too hard on ourselves. I am sure there are some down days in all of us's life. But what meditation does is to take us beyond the mind's chatter. If you keep the practice on a regular basis you will reach that place. Remember nothing is permanent so pls let go this feeling of not good father and negativity. BTW we will have to let go even this body one day. so just accept everything this moment and you will see the light at the end of tunnel.
wishing you all the best. |
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jusmail
India
491 Posts |
Posted - Mar 10 2020 : 10:45:58 PM
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“Build a better world,” said God.
And I answered,
“How? The world is such a vast place,
And so complicated now,
And I’m small and useless;
There’s nothing I can do.”
But God in all His wisdom said,
“Just build a better you.”
--Anonymous
“What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly."
- Richard Bach
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interpaul
USA
525 Posts |
Posted - Mar 11 2020 : 1:56:32 PM
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Jusmail, Beautiful. Thanks for sharing.
Compassion, How are you doing? |
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