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Originally posted by Happygoluffy

Hello, I've posted here in the thread called "kundalini and my insanity". But I'm posting again with more details hopefully to get feedback from a person with a good overall knowledge about Kundalini.

Here are the details. I am male, at the time I was 18 quite spiritual, pot smoker, in school had an experience with what I believe was crystal meth. A few days after it, without any knowledge of Kundalini, I felt an urge. The next part gets a little weird and is how I awakened my Kundalini. What happened was I put a finger in my anus and hurt it lightly accidentally or not because my nails were not trimmed.

What I felt was a shoot of energy going up my spine with an unlocking at different areas up my spine (what I realise now was the chakras opening). All the way up to my head then it descended back down. Immediately I felt a new conciousness. The other effect on me was that i was never able to experience an orgasm since the awakening.

For six years I felt like madness was on the horizon and finally schizophrenia was triggered by one of several factors including My girl friend leaving, taking cocaine and GHB once, living on my own for the first time.

What do you make of my experience? The energy going back down my spine? The loss of ability to orgasm? The change in conciousness? one I thought was a state of ignorance. The sight of madness on the horizon? and finally developing a psychotic syndrome? one for which I have been medically diagnosed. Any insight on how kundalini relates to these processes in appreciated. Thanks in advance!

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Originally posted by Happygoluffy

Thanks for the guidance. Traditional therapy and drug treatment? Well I am not to fond of drugs although they do right now get rid of the psychotic thoughts I can have.
My mind began acting strange when there were some big changes in my life. The biggest one was loving my ex girlfriend who had left the country all while wrestling with the conviction that she cheated on me. These two contradicting ideas tore my mind in two. Then I mismanaged the effects by taking drugs while my psyche was aflame.
Are there also stories about peoples kundalini acting up like this causing psychotic episodes but people coming back from it naturaly? I would like to hear about that. In my case I've had four psychotic episodes over about 5 years so it has developed into something quite powerful.

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Originally posted by kevincann



Kundalini drives at least 50% of all spiritual seekers mad for
DECADES. Lifetimes sometimes.

If you don't have a balanced system like AYP, and you play with
the spiritual dynamite, you will get blown up.

The fact is, I'd say that Kundalini is responsible for at least
25% of all mental illness in the world.

There are a number of modern Kundalini traditions that also say
this, so it's not just me.

I will say however, that it's pretty easy to go for the somewhat
exotic answer.

Sometimes a rope is a rope, not really a snake. Sometimes you need
a spool to wind the rope around, not a tran-dimensional snake winder.

Good luck.

Kevin

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Originally posted by Happygoluffy

Hello, I've posted here in the thread called "kundalini and my insanity". But I'm posting again with more details hopefully to get feedback from a person with a good overall knowledge about Kundalini.

Here are the details. I am male, at the time I was 18 quite spiritual, pot smoker, in school had an experience with what I believe was crystal meth. A few days after it, without any knowledge of Kundalini, I felt an urge. The next part gets a little weird and is how I awakened my Kundalini. What happened was I put a finger in my anus and hurt it lightly accidentally or not because my nails were not trimmed.

What I felt was a shoot of energy going up my spine with an unlocking at different areas up my spine (what I realise now was the chakras opening). All the way up to my head then it descended back down. Immediately I felt a new conciousness. The other effect on me was that i was never able to experience an orgasm since the awakening.

For six years I felt like madness was on the horizon and finally schizophrenia was triggered by one of several factors including My girl friend leaving, taking cocaine and GHB once, living on my own for the first time.

What do you make of my experience? The energy going back down my spine? The loss of ability to orgasm? The change in conciousness? one I thought was a state of ignorance. The sight of madness on the horizon? and finally developing a psychotic syndrome? one for which I have been medically diagnosed. Any insight on how kundalini relates to these processes in appreciated. Thanks in advance!

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